Monday, Monday…

Monday  29 August, started with the return of Johannes from three days in London. We had breakfast, morning prayer and the Monday morning meetings to assign work for the week. After that we had Bible study for the house: Mt. 5 beginning at verse 13.

By the time we headed for the Jungle it was 3 PM. But in even 2 hours in the Jungle you can meet quite an array of persons. I started with a brief chat with a young man whom I had visited on Friday, one who exhibits signs of depression and self-harm. His journey to Calais was particularly difficult as he spent 3 months in a Libyan prison. He told me he survived being fed one piece of bread a day. The lawless Libyan prisons are used to extort money from travelers and their friends back home. He will see a doctor later this week if it can be arranged.

Hussein and I walked along the main street with the shops, and were asked warmly by Hasheemi to enter his shop for tea. We regretfully declined as we were on a mission to take a Sundanese young man to his psychiatric appointment at the Jungle medical unit, a triage unit in a collection of steel containers where France provides on-site medical, gynecological and psychiatric care for Jungle residents in conjunction with MSF (Doctors Without Borders).

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Door to psychiatrist’s office

We entered the camp compound where the young man lived and someone left to go to the school to fetch him. Over 100 Sudanese live in this small camp area all from the Darfur area. They appear universally concerned for their young friend, and one of the leaders from the compound, a 30-year-old accompanied us to the medical area. We brought the young man to the office where he met the lady doctor and a male translator. They entered the office for a one-hour session together.

While we waited, we met several interesting men. The first, was a seriously muscled Afghan who greeted me in French. When I said “Hello” he thought I knew more French than I was letting on, and thought he would surprise me with his English. We began a conversation which turned into a monologue as he told me how he hated Americans—not the people, just the government and the army. He was a translator for U.S. Army units and for the CIA, but was abandoned in a bad position by them when the Army pulled out. He was forced to leave the country to escape Taliban reprisals but was not welcomed in Germany either. He made his way to Calais where he said life is also terrible. We had some more conversation before Hussein, who had been called away returned to ask if we could help another man sitting at the door of the medical dorm.

This man had been shot 6 days ago in the leg, purportedly by a Kurdish man on the main street in the Jungle. He was very concerned about being released from medical care and back to his tent where he may be found and shot again. He was seeking asylum in France or preferably the UK. I took pictures of his paperwork to show to Alexa and perhaps we can arrange a meeting for him with the Secours Catholique legal team. I promised to look in on him Tuesday.

While talking to him a van pulled up transporting Jungle residents from the main hospital. Sitting in the front seat with a big smile was Ali, an Afghan we had been visiting in the hospital since I arrived here. He was released to the on-site medical unit. We embraced and his smile was as big as I have seen. He still has a crutch to support him with his rebuilt hip but was moving pretty well over the sandy terrain. We will continue to work with him on his legal issues.

As we waited for the young Sudanese to finish his appointment, we saw Anissa, a young Iranian woman from London who was staying in our house for the weekend. She had gone to the hospital to pick up an 18-year-old who had an epileptic seizure and was found on the roadway Sunday. After an overnight in the hospital, they needed his bed. He was brought to the Jungle medical unit where he was to be given the medicine he needed. The medical team at the PASS unit knew nothing of his case, had no such medicine on-site and did not have a bed for him. Anissa reported just after picking him up, he passed out again.  Anissa had to leave the Jungle, find a pharmacy to get the man the medicine he needed for the night and get him to his tent.

After his appointment, we walked the young Sudanese man back to his compound and trekked over the paths through the grass where the south camp used to be, headed to the church where our van was parked.

From there I dropped people at the house, went food shopping and made dinner for 14 with the help of Ibrahim. Then home to rest an increasingly aching back.

Donna arrives this afternoon, the third CSJP to serve the Jungle. We’ll have a few days together before I leave here Friday afternoon for home.

I should note, that for reasons of privacy and out of  growing respect, I am reluctant to take or show some pictures of those I describe in posts like this. I also find it increasingly difficult to ask for permissions for photos,  not willing to interrupt the conversations we are having.

A grateful good-bye

I can’t believe it has been 3 weeks since I arrived in Calais. As I am on my way to my community, feel myself being most sincerely filled with gratitude for this opportunity to be in Calais.

I also feel gratitude towards God, for God’s spirit inspired me to say yes to God’s call and to live in Jesus’ example of radical hospitality.  I am thankful for to each and every one of sisters and associates who supported me through their prayers, emails, and encouraging words. My sisters and community members have genuinely made me feel prepared for this mission, and that I am here as a messenger for our community.

My sincere thanks to Frank, I couldn’t have asked for a better person to accompany me in this journey. In the first week as I was finding my way around Frank made sure that I was doing ok. I can’t thank him enough for helping to put the first meal for 20 people on the table. The list  of my gratitude toward Frank is is too long to list here. Our coming together not only helped each other, but we were able to reflect together about our chapter call.

I can’t express enough thanks to Brother Johannes and his friends for being a great inspiration in my life. What inspired me most is the way this community (including the refugees and volunteers) makes a difference in the pain, suffering, and injustice that people are struggling with, especially in the refugee camp.

The stories of each refugee we heard are heart breaking. It is easy to get emotional, but here in this house I leaned and experienced how to live together as one despite differences of ethnicity, religion, language. (There were 14 of us from at least 7 different countries, with one shower and one toilet.This state of constant togetherness helped us be able to bring healing to humanity. It is a reminder to me that mere awareness of suffering is not enough to change it; if we are truly committed to a more loving, peaceful world, we must ACT.

Though I fail so many times to put this philosophy into practice, I believe this experience will inspire and motivate me to see that we are stronger when we stand together, and that our compassion for another must extend beyond borders and it should transcend all concepts and realities of race, religion and gender.

 Finally, as I leave this place, I thank God and each and every person I came across here for being God’s face in my life, revealing God’s love and peace, and God’s continuous suffering in humanity. I also thank God for using my hands, feet, voice, smile, and silence as His instruments to reach out  God’s people. Bro. Johannes, Frank,  Alexa, Babak, Ali, Moein, Hussein, Ibrahim, Abdullah and Nazer, your love towards me was so genuine, I couldn’t hide my tears when I said good bye to all. You all have made a difference in my life. I will be remembering you with much gratitude and prayer.

Sr. Sheena George, CSJP
Sr. Sheena George, CSJP

Mother Clare, you continue to ask me “would you be my brave, noble, large minded and courageous soul?” Mother Clare, I tried my best, and in gratitude I remain open to your call wherever the continuation of this journey may take me, and I believe this is just beginning of many more yet to come.

With love and gratitude,
Sr. Sheena, CSJP

Several degrees of hot

A Sudanese man was found dead in the brush at the Jungle after violence Sunday and Monday evenings. May he rest in peace.

Sheena was part of a team this morning who went to help part of the Sudanese community who identified one of their members as exhibiting mental illness. The Jungle hospital (P.A.S.S.) unit has help available but in such a tension filled environment, where it is difficult to know who to trust,  convincing anyone to seek help is the challenge. Thankfully, the session went well and Sheena accompanied the young man to the P.A.S.S. unit where he met with a psychiatrist and received preliminary diagnosis. He has another appointment on Saturday. Additional cases of mental illness are being identified throughout the camp and creating a team who can help connect those in need with services available is an important step forward.

Jungle Tents-1
Jungle Tents

Wednesday’s visits to the Jungle was conducted in extreme heat. Everyone was looking for shade and little is to be found. The “Dunes” area  where the Jungle is located is on the coast. The Jungle is essentially a large sandy beach-like area with shoulder-high grasses in the areas where the South camp once existed. The whole camp area is treeless. The internet truck, usually a hot spot for communication, surrounded by refugees had only a few standing on the shady side of the truck, or laying under it. Jungle Tents 4The women running the free tea wagon were taking turns out of the van because the heat was too intense. The weather here is rarely ever that hot.

Water stations, located throughout the camp area were liberally attended as people washed up, washed clothes and filled water containers.

We even declined tea in the Welcome Restaurant  because it was too hot for tea.

Add to this the growing tensions in the camp and surrounding the camp in the local community and you have a dangerous mix. Nevertheless, we walked freely through several parts of the camp I had yet to see, usually receiving warm greetings and some offers of tea.

Sheena's Last Supper in Calais
Sheena’s Last Supper in Calais

We had another wonderful dinner prepared by Sheena, for house members and those who come for Farsi Prayer night. We pray every night for the residents of the camp. We pray for peace.

We closed with cake in the evening to celebrate Sr. Sheena’s service here. She will be missed.

Sr. Sheena’s last visit to the hospital

As Frank wrote before, one of our missions here in Calais was visiting the refugee patients in the hospital. Many of our patient were able to speak a little bit of English. We had translators (who were also refugees themselves) who spoke both languages accompany us. Tuesdays and Saturdays were our hospital visiting days. Yesterday was my last day of visiting the hospital. This was truly a ministry of presence, and I was so happy to experience how God allowed our visit to these patients, allowing a moment of hope to re-enter the lives of those who had given up.

These are the words of my friends in hospital: “you came now  four times, each time you encouraged me, thank you.” I won’t forget your words, when one door closes God will open another.” Another one of my friends said, you came and made feel comforted, I was not feeling like eating at all these days, you brought food and looked into my fridge, cleaned them and encouraged me to eat. Now you are going, when are you coming back?”

I assured them there will be someone else who will follow up in my place. 

As I shared before, life in the jungle is tough, but in the hospital it is harder. Their physical health is deteriorated, and in addition to this they feel lonely. They miss their loved ones, their friends are trying to cross the border, and they are living in a state of uncertainty not knowing how their

Sr. Sheena & Usman
Sr. Sheena & Usman

future will turn out. In our visit, there were moments of silence, laughter, and gentle touch: above all, we were fully present to each other. So as I am leaving this place, please keep our refugee patients who are in the hospital in your prayers. Especially Usman, he is losing his muscle strength both in his arms and legs. He is unable to walk and is bound to the wheel chair. He is in his early 20s and very much worried about his future. Reaching Calais from Sudan by foot and sea was a hard journey which he doesn’t want to recall. And now the journey ahead of him seems to be harder, but our presence and prayers can work miracles

Sammy

Monday, Sr. Sheena and I went back to a Sudanese tent we visited on Thursday. They had asked for some shoes so we brought a few pairs. Many are barefoot or wearing flip flops in the Jungle which has pathways strewn with broken glass and nails.

Sudnaese1When we walked in we saw a younger looking guy we had not met sitting in a chair sporting a hat that said “Paris, the Pride of France. It looked brand new and still had a sticker on it. He was introduced as Sammy, and was reluctant to speak because he had little capability in French or English. Sammy is 16 years old and had just arrived in the camp the evening after we last left. None of the men in the tent (which sleeps 25) knew him, but they made room for him and a fellow 16 year old who also recently arrived.

Sammy Sr.Sammy was wearing a pair of croc-like rubber shoes that looked like they had walked from Sudan, through Egypt to Libya, then from Italy to Calais. We opened our bag and gave him a pair of size 41 sneakers…and his face lit up when he tried them on and he saw they fit. We also welcomed him with chocolates which we also gave to each of the men. Again, we shared where we came from and there were dreamy eyes and thoughts of America, a land they see as far beyond their reach but a place beyond their dreams.

Sudanese 2In the discussion I shared that most Americans do not even know that the Jungles exists. And if any do, they think it is full of Syrians which it is not. These Sudanese are determined to get to the UK one way or another.

Sudanese 3

You have to consider what courage it took and what a push there was behind them to make two sixteen year olds from different parts of the Sudan to leave their families and homeland to try and reach the UK. Sammy has an uncle in the UK. But the only address he has is London. We are told that the families will give up their lives and fortunes to send a child away to start anew. Such is the violence, despair and death in Sudan.

The refugees have as utopian a view of England as they have of the United States. They do not realize that with the exception of a few communities they will be no more welcome there than they are here in Calais.

Yesterday, the Prefecture (administrator) of Calais declared there can be no more tents erected in the Jungle, and no more building. These Sudanese we visited just completed construction of a new house in their “compound.” The one we were sitting in will become a common kitchen and sitting area while the new structure will be for sleeping. Since Thursday my untrained eye noticed at least 15 tents that were new. There are people who left Syria, Sudan, Afghanistan or Iran 2-3 or 4 months ago with the hope of coming to Calais. They are determined; and I do not see how they will be turned away.

You can see why there is a constant tension in the Jungle. Violence breaks out some evenings usually after we have left and the fighting has been fairly limited. If the authorities continue to provoke the residents of the Jungle it is not hard to imagine more trouble may come.

Yesterday was also the Feast day of the Queenship of Mary. The Ethiopian and Eritrean church celebrates that feast after 12 days of fasting. We came to the church are near the end of our day and were given a plate of food immediately. “Eat! And celebrate with us!”  Solomon, a lay church leader continued; “We want to celebrate in a real way, the right way, with a proper feast when we get to the UK, not with the little we have now.”

Faith has such power.

P.S. Sammy asked that his picture not be taken. The photos above are some of his tent mates.

Week #2 odds and ends

View from hospital looking north to the Jungle
View from hospital looking north to the Jungle

Thursday morning I was challenged by a police officer at the entrance to the Jungle. I have presented my driver’s license to the police, probably 40 times before that morning. But the officer today told me I am not allowed to drive in France on a New Jersey driver’s license. I was told I needed an International Driver’s Permit. According to the State Department, U.S. licenses are usually acceptable in Europe—I used mine to rent a car in Scotland in October of 2015—but apparently not when driving into the Jungle to spend time with refugees.

The good news is spat over the license was enough to distract so that when a replacement driver was summoned, the gendarmes did not check the back of the van to see we had a generator and fuel we were delivering to the church.

Overnight I hosted a Sudanese couple in the studio apt. where I have stayed since arriving. She is 8 months pregnant. The gynecologist told me she would be picked up in the morning for more tests. The husband told me they would come at 10:30. That would be close but I should still make the 11 AM  Bible Study class I was asked to present. At 12:30 PM the doctor called to say she would be “a little late.” Thankfully, Sheena came to be with them so I could start the class. We all had a late start on Friday.

It was also my turn to cook on Friday. I did a vegetarian lasagna, without lasagna noodles, just using pasta layered with eggplant, mozzarella, and zucchini. It was baked in a large baking dish Johannes and I bought at a second hand shop for 8 Euros.

Saturday started slowly. Actually most of life here is much slower than at home. There are no 4 AM wake up calls here. Morning prayer in French is 8:15 but we have silence in the house until after morning prayer in English which starts at 9:15. Then breakfast. No one seems to stir in the Jungle until 11. The fast paced life and long days of our first week here are fading memories. But here, that can change in a minute.

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Hospital visitors

Sheena, Babak, Hussein and I visited the hospital on Saturday. We brought clean clothes to some, and candies to all. The patients seem to appreciate our regular visits now. I teamed up with Babak again and only saw two men. The third was in a different hospital for a few days.

Babak is especially helpful because of his own experience as he discusses the medical progress of the guys and helps them understand the process of obtaining status either in France or the UK. There is little we can do here about status in the UK, but agencies we work with like Secours Catholique can help with the legal work in France.

On to week 3.

Without prayer and mysticism, politics is….

Above, the French school in the Jungle

By Sr. Sheena…

I have been in Calais for about two weeks now. My time with Br. Johanna and his friends as well as my contact with refugees here have made me acutely aware of their daily struggles. It is heartbreaking to see their pain and distress, and I know I will never completely understand their grief. As I was walking back from the refugee camp, I reflected on the heartbreaking stories I heard of people who had fled their war-torn countries (Syria, Iran, Sudan, Afghanistan, and Pakistan). I was reminded of the words of the great theologian Edward Schillebeeckx, “Without prayer or mysticism politics soon becomes cruel and barbaric. Without political love, prayer or mysticism soon becomes sentimental or uncommitted interiority”.

Welcome Restaurant (Afghan)
Welcome Restaurant (Afghan)

The refugee count is growing every day and, at present, there are approximately 7000 displaced persons in Calais. In the camp, (called “the jungle”), life is harsh and getting harder. Anxiety and fear are spreading like an epidemic throughout the hearts and minds of everyone here. There is growing tension between police and refugees. Obtaining asylum in either France or England or, really, any European country, is difficult and nearing impossibility. Many are terrified that the camp will soon be closed. The cloud of despair blanketing the camp is thick and relentless.The political leaders’ response to this human suffering is clinical and devoid of any kind of compassion or mercy.

Sr. Sheena & Hashemi
Sr. Sheena & Hashemi, manager of the Welcome Restaurant

Those in leadership positions are concerned only with numbers and limits and regulations. There is very little concern for the palpable suffering occurring right in front of them. This makes me wonder if it is a lack of self reflection and communal discernment that causes these individuals to respond so callously. Edward Schillebeeckx, words echoes in my ear “Without prayer or mysticism politics soon becomes cruel and barbaric”.

We begin our day with prayer, meditation, and reflection about how we are going to help our friends in the “jungle.” And, we end each day with self reflection. By doing this, we are able to locate our humanity and compassion as we reach out with love for these people who are so desperately in need.

Saiid & Mohammed
Saiid & Mohammed

This feeling of compassion is not merely a sentimental response with no practical or long-term effects. It is the embodiment of Christ’s love, grounded in human rights and dignity. It is a compassion that recognizes the equality and dignity of every human person regardless of ethnicity, color, religion or nationality. This compassion is challenging me, asking me if I am willing to leave my comfort zone and offer true hospitality to my brothers and sisters. I end my day praying for a greater congruence of compassion at both the government and individual levels that will facilitate an end to the suffering and marginalization of this large faction of Christ’s people.

Precarious tenting
Precarious tenting

Living Together

Shoes
Shoes lined up at front door

This morning’s reading was from 1 Corinthians 12: 12-20.  (see below for the text) All parts of the body, being different yet working together. I cannot help but think of the living situation here in Calais. Perhaps you like me, wonder how so many people, different ages, different languages, different cultures can get along and live together. Keep wondering!!!

Since I’ve been here we’ve had the following living in the house:

Brother Johannes a monk from Holland, the house Master speaking Dutch, French and English

Maria from Romania, speaking Romanian, French and English with an enchanting voice. MAria moved on to Taize for retreat time…

Babak, Ali and Moein from Iran, speaking Farsi and English and Babak speaks  French as well. Babak and Ali make movies…

Alexandra, a Scotch born French woman with a law background, (English and French)

Julie is also French with some English, she has left and hopes to return

Hussein, an Egyptian Arabic with some English

Young David, a Sudanese left trying to get to England. He may return.

Ibrahim from Syria, an Arabic speaker who is working hard on his French and works even harder at making us laugh

Hussein is a 17 year old from Egypt who speaks Arabic

Abdullah is from Sudan and speaks English very well as well as his native Arabic

Sr. Sheena, Mark and Avinash are originally from India and speak English and Hindi. Avinash also speaks French,

and then there is me, limited to English, although I understand a little French.

We gather every Monday morning after morning prayer and breakfast to assign or volunteer for the week’s work assignments in the house. Most get done.

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Key assignments are cooking, cleaning up after dinner and other chores like cleaning bathrooms, floors and the refrigerator. Someone is assigned to house duty every day so the house is never unattended and there is someone assigned to welcome those who come to the door. S/he also has responsibilities of making sure bed linens are changed so beds are available as people move out and in.

The house also hosts a Farsi/English evening prayer one night a week (tonight’s prayer service lasted an hour!) Farsi and French lessons during the week along with many unscheduled and serendipitous gatherings. Basically half of us are basically volunteers who have come to help in the Jungle, and the other half are refugees who formerly lived in the Jungle and now live in Marie Skobtsova house as volunteers or as folks recovering from injuries or illness.

I have not discerned any bickering because people are not carrying their share of the load. Quite the opposite, there are many helpers for those who have task assigned to them. Yes, there was tension today because recycling bins were not loaded properly and the dirt (garbage) was not picked up today. But when the muttering started I heard an effort to get this right, not to blame someone for doing it wrong.

It is a privilege to live in a community like this, if even for a month. I’ve had my share of community experiences but there is only one that even comes close to what we are living here. That one was Camp Fatima, and we knew where that led.  (Hi honey!)

 

Text for 1 Cor. 12:12-20:

12 For just as the body is one and has many members, and all the members of the body, though many, are one body, so it is with Christ. 13 For in the one Spirit we were all baptized into one body—Jews or Greeks, slaves or free—and we were all made to drink of one Spirit.

14 Indeed, the body does not consist of one member but of many. 15 If the foot would say, “Because I am not a hand, I do not belong to the body,” that would not make it any less a part of the body. 16 And if the ear would say, “Because I am not an eye, I do not belong to the body,” that would not make it any less a part of the body. 17 If the whole body were an eye, where would the hearing be? If the whole body were hearing, where would the sense of smell be? 18 But as it is, God arranged the members in the body, each one of them, as he chose. 19 If all were a single member, where would the body be? 20 As it is, there are many members, yet one body. 21 The eye cannot say to the hand, “I have no need of you,” nor again the head to the feet, “I have no need of you.” 22 On the contrary, the members of the body that seem to be weaker are indispensable, 23 and those members of the body that we think less honorable we clothe with greater honor, and our less respectable members are treated with greater respect; 24 whereas our more respectable members do not need this. But God has so arranged the body, giving the greater honor to the inferior member, 25 that there may be no dissension within the body, but the members may have the same care for one another. 26 If one member suffers, all suffer together with it; if one member is honored, all rejoice together with it.

Hospitality as Duty

By Sister Sheena, CSJP

Ethiopian women returning from church
Ethiopian women returning from church

Frank, Bro. Johannas and myself visited the jungle today. Our first stop was at an Afghan camp. As we were introducing ourselves to them, they could right away identify me as an Indian and I, in my broken Hindi (Indian language), and they, in their Urdu language, started to chat. One of the things I felt within me from their sharing was that, they fled from their country because they felt they were refugees in their own land. If they supported Afghan government, then the Taliban will shoot them and if they chose Taliban, then Afghan government will shoot them. “Life for us, young men, was very hard in our own country” was their cry.

While this conversation took place, they served us Indian tea and apologized to me saying sorry we didn’t have the spice to add into it…. and they couldn’t understand how I could remain without being married. But that conversation led us to share how each religion believes in one God and follow the basic rule of love and peace.

Pakistani tents along container area fence
Newly arrived Pakistani’s tents along container area fence
Small tents on the dunes
Small tents on the dunes

Frank and myself took another walk from there and were joined by the Pakistani refugees. They were new to the camp. They left Pakistan just 10 days ago because of the Taliban attacks. Young men were happy to speak with us in Hindi. They insisted that we should have tea with them and we took the offer for another day.

Then, we were welcomed by the Sudanese to have tea with them. The Sudanese are known for their hospitality. When I said ‘thank you’ for their hospitality, they told us that it was their duty. At the end of the day, when I look back … What comes to my mind, is the question many asked me before I came to Calais “are you anxious, worried, any fear….? Yes, I was bit worried…my biggest worry was “will I be able to be effective in connecting myself with the people?” One of the ways that I could find myself connecting with them was that with my country of birth, my skin color, my curly hair, Hindi language and Bollywood movies (famous Indian Movies). Even the Sudanese had so much to talk about Bollywood movies. This was an icebreaker and was a moment of closeness with them. Once we feel the connectedness then we experience in each other the presence of holiness.

I wonder, is this an experience of radical hospitality? Do they teach me today that it doesn’t matter what you have or where you come from, it is our DUTY to be hospitable to one another. I can’t thank God enough for reveling God’s face on each one of the refugees that I came across today and in return allowing me to be her instrument of just a hello and smile.